Desperation-The cause of suffering

There are quite instances in my life where I was quite fed up with the circumstances and wanted my life to turn around quickly. Usually I was quite annoyed with my health issues. I had runny nose, bloating stomach and the worse past was when people used to compare me with my younger brother. I never compared my self with others, it only got to my mind when people used to comment on my physique. And at some point I felt like why this happens with me? Why am I not that fit? I exercise, eat good and still I have these problems? The question was stuck in my mind.

Comparison is the worst thing for anyone. It is a thief that will steal your happiness. I have experienced it. And the fact is it gets into your mind and that was something I want to get out of so desperately, but the more quickly I wanted the change, more worse the things got. I realized that I was trying to impress others or seeing myself from others point of view which lowered my self-confidence to a great extent. Now I was looking for validation from everyone. I knew this fact but somehow it became my habit and further the things got worse.

 I am not exaggerating about anything but somewhere I felt like I was trying to fit in. It may seem like normal to some but it I was suffering at those times. However, the one habit that has helped a lot is that of book reading. I was desperate for the mental and physical transition. And then through reading I started to understand everything. Patience was something I learnt over time as I started observing myself and my thoughts. Though it took much time and I am still in the process of healing and learning.

 You'll suffer plenty of times because of desperation and you'll never admit because you'll never know when it becomes your habit. Desperation in any aspect would only make the things worse and one of the major causes of desperation is comparison to others. You might not admit it but it happens unconsciously and you feel unnecessary sad.  

The only thing you need to do is to observe your thoughts and develop habit of affirming good for you because when you compare yourself to others, you tend to self-criticize a lot. The mind gets into negative thought pattern too often and quickly. All you need is to change your perspective. I have been through this and that is how I have changed my thought pattern. Change the direction of your thoughts. Always remember that at any point of your life, someone would be ahead of you and someone behind, so there's no fun of comparing. Just prioritize and love yourself. Be the better version of yourself for yourself.

Affirmation here can be- I am unique and fortunate. I approve of myself. I believe in the Divine or God and everything works out in my favor. I am grateful for this life.